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My experience dating during the pandemic has felt a lot like virtual speed dating.

People who hadn’t necessarily been in a rush to get into a relationship hit the apps especially hard when faced with the prospect of being alone for an indeterminate amount of time.

Some who, under normal circumstances, might have played it cool were suddenly willing to air every gritty detail of their lives in an attempt to connect with someone, anyone, even if only over the phone or Zoom.

In a fairly short period of time, I’d come to feel like I’d truly seen it all…

Humans 101

Fear can crush or strengthen you. Here’s how to use it to your advantage.

A photo of someone washing their hands in the sink. The water is glittery and sparkly.
A photo of someone washing their hands in the sink. The water is glittery and sparkly.
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As a person who grew up in a religion that preached the end of the world, I’ve spent most of my life grappling with fears similar to those we’re experiencing right now.

When I began using psychedelics therapeutically, I found significant relief for the first time in my life. After just a few ayahuasca ceremonies, I went from being a person who’d spent most of their life not wanting to live due to extreme existential fear and trauma to someone who accepted life’s uncertainty and felt grateful to experience anything at all.

My relief came with a series of realizations…

Planet Soul

I thought she was way off. It turned out I just didn’t know the full story.

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I wasn’t always open to the idea of going to a healer. When I left the doomsday cult I was raised in, the greatest relief I felt was falling into the warm, rational embrace of atheism where nothing existed outside of what science could prove and no one could consider me delusional. However, when I started doing psychedelics, my understanding of reality began to shift and the concept that we are all energetic beings became very, “Yeah, duh.”

I’ve had myriad interdimensional experiences that have convinced me energy healing is real, so I was intrigued when I heard about Master…

Ayahuasca gave me back my will to live when nothing else worked

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A couple of weeks ago, on World Mental Health Day, I posted a tweet briefly describing the lifelong anxiety I have experienced after being raised in a cult. I also shared that I’ve found a lot of relief using psychedelics.

Chelsea Lockwood

Writer and figment of your imagination living in Los Angeles, California.

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